Trying to figure out where to go from here.  Charlie should be transitioning back to his bio-family within a few months.  I've realized my limitations w/ straight up foster care.  I don't want to be a temporary mom, I want to be a permanent one.  I just don't know if I'll get that chance.  We've decided to go through an agency to adopt a newborn.  If it's in God's plan, He will surely bless us in that way.  If not, I'm hoping I can learn to be satisfied w/ helping children by way of respite care & church.  Pray for us, my heart breaks as I write this.  I just want to feel the love that only comes from being a mother.